chriscoscia07

location: In front of my computer nd TV

mood: confused

music: "I wish I could go back to college" - Avenue Q

I don't really know what the hell is the matter with me.  I'm just so tired and I feel like no one wants to be around me, especially Kristin.  I don't know what's come beteen us.  But ever since that fight, things just haven't been the same between us.  I definatly think that having almost all of our classes together this semester was a HUGE mistake, it's just too much time together and we get on each other's nerves very easily.  
Also, I really miss Mom.  This is probably one of the situations I would be going to her to talk about.  There's just no one to talk to.  No one to tell my problems to, at least no one who would understand.  I can't really talk to Dad that much and I can talk to Theresa, but not about this.  It's times like these when I really really want to go back to M.L. and know that I am liked and loved and needed and wanted.  I'm just very lonely and don't really know how to go about trying to make new friends.  As much as I'd like to, I just don't know what to do because I'm afraid of being rejected or getting really close to someone and having them leave or disappoint me.  I miss my true best friends, the ones I know I can rely on no matter what. The ones who will sit with me and get me to try and talk things out, not just try to cheer me up and make me forget about it.  I thought Kristin was one of them, but I just don't know anymore.  I don't know,... I'm very confused and at this point I'm just like WHATEVER!
~CC